Easter Sunday 1839 and we continue to reflect on Eugene’s reminiscences of that day on his vocation and the motivation behind his life as a missionary. He recalls his return to Aix as a 30 year-old priest:
I thus responded to the Bishop of Metz that my whole ambition was to consecrate myself to the service of the poor and the youth. I thus started out in the prisons, and my first apprenticeship consisted of gathering around me young boys whom I instructed. I formed a large number in virtue. I saw up to 280 grouped around me, and those who today still remain faithful to the principles that I had the happiness of instilling in their souls and who do honor to their faith in every rank of society or in the sanctuary, will uphold for a long time, either in Aix or in the other places where they are dispersed, the reputation that this association had rightly acquired for itself while I was able to care for it.
Well, this twofold ministry contributed to keeping me faithful to my ideals. Among these poor prisoners whom I helped spiritually and materially, and among the youth who looked up to me as their father, I met only souls full of recognition, hearts full of affection that responded perfectly to the tender charity that I felt for them. They loved me so much that several mothers declared that they would have been jealous had not this sentiment shown the goodness of their children, but that in truth they loved me more than they loved them, their own mothers.
With the overwhelming response to his loving dedication:
Everything contributed to my conviction that it was impossible for me not to be loved. With my heart so disposed, that is to say, never wishing harm to anyone, desiring to do good to everyone, and always ready to show affection to everyone who could appreciate it, I could not understand that there could be even one person, who really knew me, who would wish to hurt me or even sadden me. Sweet but mistaken illusion of a heart that loves too much! I did not see the flaw in this all too natural feeling. I was so little aware of it that I would have boasted about it just as, in the secret of my soul, I rejoiced in possessing it.
Eugene de Mazenod’s Diary, 31 March 1839, EO XX