The young Bourellier was unhappy because he considered himself less useful than those around him. Here Eugene encouraged him by pointing out that whatever he was asked to do in the house, as a service to the community and its Rule, was an invitation to seek the presence of God. Living the present moment fully for God, “with heart and soul” was an assurance salvation.
How much I could tell you about the unhappiness you manifest about not being useful. What an error!
Were obedience to put me at a door to open and close to those who come and go, I would consider myself very happy and I would believe, not without reason, that my salvation was more assured by this situation in which I was forced to be against my liking. One always does enough when one does only what obedience prescribes. It is only a matter of doing it well, not only exteriorly, but with heart and soul, and then one cannot be other than saved.
So, my dear friend, cease to be grieved in the slightest on this subject…
Letter to Hilarion Bourrelier, 19 September 1821, EO VI n 72
“Let your only evaluation of worth derive from the awareness of God’s love for you. All other measures leave one in a state of delusion.” Anonymous