With a heavy heart, Eugene brought his difficulties to prayer during his celebration of Mass. In this letter he shares with his confidant and confessor, Henri Tempier, a deep experience he had of God’s closeness. This text is one of the rare glimpses we have of him speaking about the intimacy of his relationship with Jesus, his “good Master.”
This morning, before communion, I dared to speak to this good Master with the same freedom that I would have had if I had had the happiness to live when he walked on earth, and if I had found myself in the same predicament. I said Mass in a particular chapel, I was not distracted by anyone’s presence.
I exposed to him our needs, asked his light and his assistance, and then I surrendered myself entirely to him, wishing absolutely nothing else than his holy will. I took communion in this disposition. As soon as I had taken the precious blood, it was impossible for me to resist such an abundance of interior consolations that it was necessary, in spite of my efforts not to reveal before the brother server what was going on in my soul, to utter sighs and shed such a quantity of tears that the corporal and the altar cloth were saturated.
No painful thought provoked this explosion, on the contrary, I was well, I was happy and if I did not have such a heavy heart, I would believe that I was loving, that I was grateful. This state lasted quite a long time; it was prolonged during my thanksgiving, which I good sense made me shorten.
Letter to Henri Tempier, 23 August 1830, EO VII n 359
“May the Lord give to all of us the grace to not be afraid of the consolation of the Lord, to be open: ask for it, seek it, because it is a consolation that will give us hope, and make us feel the tenderness of God the Father.” Pope Francis