I WILL MYSELF BE CARRIED AS I WAS SEEING THIS CARDINAL BEING CARRIED

“The fear of death follows fromt he fear of life. A man who lives fully is prepared to die at any time.” Mark Twain

Joseph Bernet had been Archbishop of Aix from 1836 to 1846. In 1846 he had been made a cardinal and returned to Aix on March 25 in a procession along the streets of Aix en Provence.

He died four months later and Eugene reflects in his diary on the thoughts that passed through his mind as he walked in the funeral procession.

During the procession, in the absence of singing, I said some rosaries for the deceased. My spirit was preoccupied with a thousand thoughts.

First that a state pretty much the same was reserved for me, that I will myself be carried as I was seeing this cardinal being carried, that his successor would perhaps come to render to me what I am doing today for him, by consequence, that the life of this world was a little thing, etc.

How not to reflect on the vanity of things of the world when one thinks that it is not more than one hundred days, barely one hundred days, that Bishop Bernet made his triumphal entry pretty much by the same streets where we were carrying him dead today. Thus, his red soutane was but a shroud for him.

Eugene de Mazenod’s Diary, 9 August 1846, EO XXI

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  1. Eleanor Rabnett, Lay Oblate says:

    Eugene writes of the “triumphal entry” of the new cardinal and the sense of those words is one of conquering, heroic, something far removed and above the norm. Later Eugene puts it into a different perspective as it being a part of the vanity of things of the world and their ultimate unimportance. The cardinal’s special new red soutane which was perhaps meant to signify his importance became nothing more than a shroud which is used to cover the dead.

    I think for a moment of another triumphant entry – that of Jesus into Jerusalem – on his way to the cross. So very different from the cardinal’s entry…

    I cannot help but wonder what my own death will look like – for sure there will be no pomp or circumstance. I may be carried through the streets in a hearse and if I am really lucky someone seeing the hearse might say a quick prayer for the body it carries.

    How we will be remembered? Will it be for our joy or our discontent?. Will people remark on our ready smiles, joy and willingness to serve with love in the true spirit of oblation? Will some or any remark on how readily we shared the many gifts that God gave to us, or will they remember only a certain reticence to give what was received from God and others?

    Will we leave this world covered in a dark shroud, or a mantle painted with the colours of laughter and life?

    Looking back I did not always make the right choices, and it took me a long time to grow up and try to live the adage “do unto others as you would have them do unto you”. Now I tend to find myself looking at all that God has given to me. Any glory that has been spilled onto me is to be seen only as a very pale reflection of the glory of God.

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