{"id":814,"date":"2011-06-17T05:00:50","date_gmt":"2011-06-17T03:00:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/?p=814"},"modified":"2011-06-07T17:14:23","modified_gmt":"2011-06-07T15:14:23","slug":"acknowledging-his-lifelong-struggle-with-being-short-tempered-with-others-when-he-is-tired","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/?p=814","title":{"rendered":"ACKNOWLEDGING HIS LIFELONG STRUGGLE WITH BEING SHORT-TEMPERED WITH OTHERS WHEN HE IS TIRED"},"content":{"rendered":"<blockquote>\n<h5 style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>My blood is so excited that I feel doubly brusque, which often makes me fail in charity, etc.<\/strong><\/h5>\n<h5 style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>I do not possess my soul in peace. The least obstacle, the least opposition provokes me. I repulse, in all too human a manner, opposition that I should overcome and conquer by patience alone.<\/strong><\/h5>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em>Retreat Notes, July-August 1816, O.W. XV n 139<\/em><\/p>\n<p>The community of missionaries must have suffered from his outbursts, because in his letter to them from the place where he is resting he wrote:<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<h5 style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>Since you so wish, I will replenish my health. I would also wish to store up virtue so as no longer to be a subject of scandal in your midst; but the second undertaking is not as easy as the first. I have no great hope of succeeding therein; pray then to the good God to give you grace to enable you to endure me. <\/strong><\/h5>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em>Letter addressed to \u201cour dear brothers, the missionaries at Aix\u201d,<br \/>\nJuly 1816, O.W. VI n 12<\/em><\/p>\n<p>This prayer for others to be able to put up with his roughness must have been repeated very often during his long life when tiredness and worry made him short-tempered! It was his struggle right up to the end of his life.<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<h5 style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>This is the reason, perhaps, as well as because of my natural brusqueness, for those interior movements of impatience that are often evident externally and scandalize those who witness them.<\/strong><\/h5>\n<h5 style=\"text-align: justify;\"><strong>So I will work as well on this lovely virtue of meekness. I will encourage myself with the thought that I did make some progress in it; but as occasions became more frequent and more difficult, I have reverted practically to my natural state. Let\u2019s hope that with the help of grace I will be more fortunate in the future.<\/strong><\/h5>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em>Retreat Notes, July-August 1816, O.W. XV n 139<\/em><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>My blood is so excited that I feel doubly brusque, which often makes me fail in charity, etc. I do not possess my soul in peace. The least obstacle, the least opposition provokes me. I repulse, in all too human &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/?p=814\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[40],"tags":[9],"class_list":["post-814","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-retreat-notes","tag-eugenes-personality"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/814","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=814"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/814\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=814"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=814"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=814"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}