{"id":55,"date":"2010-06-05T19:35:31","date_gmt":"2010-06-05T17:35:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/?p=55"},"modified":"2012-03-04T12:19:56","modified_gmt":"2012-03-04T10:19:56","slug":"priesthood-to-consume-myself-in-his-love-serving-him-and-spreading-the-news-of-how-loveable-he-is","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/?p=55","title":{"rendered":"PRIESTHOOD: TO CONSUME MYSELF IN HIS LOVE, SERVING HIM AND SPREADING THE NEWS OF HOW LOVEABLE HE IS"},"content":{"rendered":"

In the days leading up to his priestly ordination Eugene used the Retreat of Fr. Judde on the Spiritual Exercises<\/em> of St. Ignatius. Based on the first meditation of Ignatius (the Principle and Foundation<\/em>) he reflects on what he wishes for the retreat: to empty himself totally \u201cso that the Holy Spirit, when it no longer encounters obstacles to its divine operations, may come to rest on me in all its fullness, filling everything within me with the love of J.C. my Saviour.\u201d The graces of his journey of conversion to Jesus the Saviour and of his \u201cGood Friday Experience\u201d are clearly recognisable here for the future Co-operator of Christ the Saviour. Eugene\u2019s focus orbits around the love of the Saviour.<\/span><\/p>\n

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None of those [retreats] I have made up to now has been able to satisfy me, and I would long for the moment which God\u2019s mercy now grants me at this decisive moment of my life when I must prepare myself to receive very soon the sublime and awesome priesthood of J.C. <\/span><\/strong><\/h5>\n
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I pray that I may profit from the grace I am privileged to receive, and use it to purify my soul and rid my heart completely of creatures, so that the Holy Spirit, when it no longer encounters obstacles to its divine operations, may come to rest on me in all its fullness, filling everything within me with the love of J.C. my Saviour, in such a way that I live and breathe no longer but in him, consume myself in his love, serving him and spreading the news of how loveable he is and how foolish men are to seek elsewhere their hearts\u2019 resting place when they can never find it but in him alone.\u00a0<\/span><\/strong><\/h5>\n
Jesus, good master, turn a look of compassion on your poor servant. It seems to me that I love you but I am afraid of deceiving myself; it seems to me that if you were to question me as you once questioned the Prince of the Apostles (it was the ardour of his love for you that motivated my choice of him as patron), it seems to me I would answer as did he: yes, Lord, I love you. But it would not need your putting the question for a third time to make me feel unsure of the sincerity of that love I had avowed for you, for, I repeat, I am afraid of deceiving myself and while I believe I love you, you would see, you who are the uncreated Light, that illuminates the darkest corners of my heart, and reads in its most secret places, and plumbs the depths of hearts and loins, you would see that in fact I do not love you at all.\u00a0<\/span><\/strong><\/h5>\n
My Saviour, my Father, my love, bring me to love you; this only do I ask, for I know full well that that is everything. Give me your love.<\/span><\/strong><\/h5>\n<\/blockquote>\n

Notes made during the retreat in preparation for priestly ordination
\n<\/span>1-21 December 1811, O.W. XIV n.95<\/span><\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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