{"id":4048,"date":"2019-09-10T05:00:56","date_gmt":"2019-09-10T03:00:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/?p=4048"},"modified":"2019-06-22T23:01:20","modified_gmt":"2019-06-22T21:01:20","slug":"you-mustnt-be-surprised-that-i-am-hesitant-when-conscience-honor-and-the-peace-of-my-whole-life-are-at-stake","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/?p=4048","title":{"rendered":"YOU MUSTN\u2019T BE SURPRISED THAT I AM HESITANT WHEN CONSCIENCE, HONOR AND THE PEACE OF MY WHOLE LIFE ARE AT STAKE"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Apart from all the reasons stated above which Eugene gave for not cooperating with the wishes of the government, he kept on insisting that he wanted to spend the remaining years of his life in the restful peace of an Oblate community. Henri Tempier, usually introverted and deferential reveals his own frustration and his own personal desires which he has always subdued for the sake of Eugene.<\/p>\n<p><em>I think this is the last time that I shall speak to you about all this, for I am sick and tired of it. I can tell you that if a rest is so pleasing to you, I also call and desire a rest at least as much as you. Why is it that I have to be here and let my blood run dry for twelve years, forever harnessed to the cart, in most difficult situations!<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>Providence has always arranged things in such a way that, whatever be the crisis we have had to undergo, no matter what its nature, I have ended up all alone to taste its sweetness. All the difficult moments that I have had to experience in diocesan business and for you especially in countless instances, have worn me out, have wearied me to the point that business annoys me to no end: I am fed up with it.<\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>Why shouldn\u2019t I enjoy a bit of rest? It seems to me that I would be asking for only what is justly due to me.<\/em><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em>Letter of Henri Tempier to Eugene de Mazenod, 23 August 1835, EO2 Tempier n 83<\/em><\/p>\n<p>Eugene\u2019s reaction:<\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<h5><strong>Your last two letters are too harsh; you mustn\u2019t be surprised that I am hesitant when conscience, honour and the peace of my whole life are at stake.<\/strong><\/h5>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em>Letter to Henri Tempier, 25 August 1836, EO VIII n 538<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Apart from all the reasons stated above which Eugene gave for not cooperating with the wishes of the government, he kept on insisting that he wanted to spend the remaining years of his life in the restful peace of an &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/?p=4048\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4048","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-writings"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4048","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4048"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4048\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4048"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4048"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4048"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}