{"id":28,"date":"2010-05-05T16:10:17","date_gmt":"2010-05-05T14:10:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/?p=28"},"modified":"2010-08-16T08:34:02","modified_gmt":"2010-08-16T06:34:02","slug":"i-cannot-accept-the-least-compromise-in-anything-to-do-with-duty","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/?p=28","title":{"rendered":"I CANNOT ACCEPT THE LEAST COMPROMISE IN ANYTHING TO DO WITH DUTY"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"color: #000000;\">More character insights from Eugene\u2019s 1808 self-evaluation at the age of 26:<\/span><\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<h6><strong><span style=\"color: #000000;\">If I am in the wrong and someone tells me off with a superior or triumphalistic kind of attitude, I will not accept it, and come up with reasons, albeit specious, to cover up my mistake.<\/span><\/strong><\/h6>\n<h6><strong><span style=\"color: #000000;\"> <\/span><\/strong><\/h6>\n<h6><strong><span style=\"color: #000000;\"> But if I am corrected by someone with an air and attitude of goodwill and friendship, I will not say a single word in my defence, and I will frankly acknowledge that I could have done better, been more thoughtful or expressed myself better. <\/span><\/strong><\/h6>\n<h6><strong><span style=\"color: #000000;\"> <\/span><\/strong><\/h6>\n<h6><strong><span style=\"color: #000000;\"> By nature I am inclined to severity, quite determined never to allow myself the least self-indulgence, but at the same time strongly inclined not to suffer it in others too. I cannot accept the least compromise in anything to do with duty. Death, and I mean this literally, death should seem preferable to me to transgressing an important duty. <\/span><\/strong><\/h6>\n<h6><strong><span style=\"color: #000000;\"> <\/span><\/strong><\/h6>\n<h6><strong><span style=\"color: #000000;\"> I hate jealousy and regard it as a vice unworthy of a generous heart. And so I am pleased when others show excellence, even outstanding excellence. If they shine in some field that is new to me, I try to push myself to imitate them. If I can see beforehand that it would be futile to make the effort, I am angry with myself for having wasted my time when I was young and because I am stupidly limited to certain kinds of knowledge only.<\/span><\/strong><\/h6>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><em>Self-evaluation written for his spiritual director in 1808, O.W. XIV n. 30<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>More character insights from Eugene\u2019s 1808 self-evaluation at the age of 26: If I am in the wrong and someone tells me off with a superior or triumphalistic kind of attitude, I will not accept it, and come up with &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/?p=28\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[9],"class_list":["post-28","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-writings","tag-eugenes-personality"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=28"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/28\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=28"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=28"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=28"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}