{"id":27,"date":"2010-05-04T15:52:39","date_gmt":"2010-05-04T13:52:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/?p=27"},"modified":"2010-08-16T07:55:23","modified_gmt":"2010-08-16T05:55:23","slug":"i-would-not-let-anything-stand-in-my-way-to-overcome-even-the-most-difficult-obstacle","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.eugenedemazenod.net\/?p=27","title":{"rendered":"I WOULD NOT LET ANYTHING STAND IN MY WAY TO OVERCOME EVEN THE MOST DIFFICULT OBSTACLE"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span style=\"color: #000000;\">On entering the seminary, the 26 year-old Eugene wrote a \u201cself-evaluation\u201d for his spiritual director. Reading it from the vantage point of what we know about his life, it is interesting to see how he refers to the struggles within his personality. His strength of character was to make him a valiant founder, an enflamed inspirer of missionaries, a lion of a bishop who fought for the poor and for the rights of his flock. But one touches also the price he had to pay for his character and the shadows with which he had to struggle. He writes:<\/span><\/p>\n<blockquote>\n<h6><strong><span style=\"color: #000000;\">I am a lively and impetuous type of character. When I want something I want it very badly, I am impatient of the least hold up and I find delays unbearable. Firm in my resolutions, I chafe against anything that gets in the way of carrying them out, and I would not let anything stand in my way to overcome even the most difficult obstacle. <\/span><\/strong><\/h6>\n<h6><strong><span style=\"color: #000000;\"> <\/span><\/strong><\/h6>\n<h6><strong><span style=\"color: #000000;\">Obstinate in my desires and feelings, I rebel at the mere hint of opposition; if it persists and unless I am really sure that I am being opposed for a higher good, I become heated and then I find within myself new and hitherto unknown resources, I mean I acquire all of a sudden a remarkable fluency in the expression of my ideas which come all in a rush, although in my normal state I often have to dig for them, and express them but slowly. I experience the same facility when I am deeply moved by anything and really want others to share my feelings.<\/span><span style=\"color: #000000;\"> <\/span><\/strong><\/h6>\n<h6><strong><span style=\"color: #000000;\"> <\/span><\/strong><\/h6>\n<h6><strong><span style=\"color: #000000;\">In sharp contrast to that, if instead of standing in my way someone gives way to me, I am completely disarmed and if I see that some embarrassment results for someone who held an unreasonable position against me, far from feeling triumphant, I do not rub it in by pressing home my arguments, I go out of my way rather to make excuses for him.<\/span><span style=\"color: #000000;\"> <\/span><\/strong><\/h6>\n<h6><strong><span style=\"color: #000000;\"> <\/span><\/strong><\/h6>\n<h6><strong><span style=\"color: #000000;\">In either case, if I let slip some ungracious word, I am as upset as if I had committed a felony.<\/span><\/strong><\/h6>\n<h6><strong> <\/strong><\/h6>\n<h6><strong><span style=\"color: #000000;\">From this you can see that my character is generous, even just, but <span style=\"color: #000000;\"><span style=\"text-decoration: underline;\">often excessively so<\/span>,<\/span> for I am naturally inclined to humble anyone who is too forward, and there is nothing I would not do to extol the merits of someone who is humble.<\/span><\/strong><\/h6>\n<\/blockquote>\n<p style=\"text-align: right;\"><span style=\"color: #000000;\"> <em>Self-evaluation written for his spiritual director in 1808, O.W. XIV n. 30<\/em><\/span><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>On entering the seminary, the 26 year-old Eugene wrote a \u201cself-evaluation\u201d for his spiritual director. 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