Eugene acknowledges that his conversion has to be an on-going process \u2013 he is not yet \u201cimmersed in God.\u201d<\/p>\n
\n\u2026Thus I went against all his plans, by my fault; I had even rendered the attainment of some of them an impossibility for the future. If I am to believe what my teachers tell me, I was quite talented, and if I had wanted I might have become a very accomplished person; I did not so wish and I shall never be more than a mediocrity. May God pardon the consequences of this fault that persisted right through my youth and will survive in its effects throughout my lifetime and after.<\/strong><\/h5>\n
Since my conversion there has been, it is true, a certain change, but I have nothing to be complacent about in my actions; how far I am indeed from bringing to them the purity of intention God demands. I am not yet, – indeed, far from it – immersed in God. Always I find self where I should count for naught. I strip my Master, but alas, my petty larcenies, far from enriching me, impoverish me, the gold as it passes through my hands ends up in smoke, or rather worse still, I am left with nothing but filth.<\/strong><\/h5>\n<\/blockquote>\n
Retreat Journal, December 1814, O.W. XV n.130<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Eugene acknowledges that his conversion has to be an on-going process \u2013 he is not yet \u201cimmersed in God.\u201d \u2026Thus I went against all his plans, by my fault; I had even rendered the attainment of some of them an … Continue reading