Yvon Beaudoin narrates:
“It is the crucial point in this difficult episode of Bishop de Mazenod’s life. The faithful “Roman” appears abandoned by the Curia, at a time when the police are free to expel him from France whenever they like and so separate him from all his loved ones: his uncle Fortuné, Tempier, the Oblates, etc. With good reason Rey writes that the year 1834 was a year of anguish for the Founder.” (EO 8 pages XXV-XXVI)
We pick up his anguish in this sentence from his letter to the Vatican:
I wish I had a less sensitive heart, I would love less, be less tied up in a host of things which affect me very deeply within and I would be happy.
Letter to Bishop Frezza, Secretary of the Congregation for Extraordinary Affairs at the Vatican, 28 November 1834, EO XV n 175