The events of the previous few years have led him to understand that living “all for God” pushes him not into a monastic contemplative lifestyle, but into serving God in others:
let me devote myself anew and forever to my neighbour’s service, but with less neglect of myself, let me be more watchful over my inner self, and not let myself get entirely absorbed by works of exterior zeal, i.e., in a word, let me work at one and the same time both for the salvation of others and for my own sanctification.
God’s grace has been transforming him and so he prays that this grace of God may not be in vain:
My God, the fault is mine alone, for your grace never ceases to go before me, to stimulate me, and is ever my companion.
Lord, make me more docile to following its promptings,
more attentive to hearing its inspirations,
more faithful in putting into practice the resolutions it dictates.
Day’s Retreat, during th community retreat, 30 October 1818,
EO XV n. 148