Eugene’s retreat led him to look at his impending episcopacy with discomfort but with gentle trust in God.
And even so it is in this state of affairs I am called suddenly to receive the plenitude of the priesthood, elevated to the sublime episcopal dignity. My good God! If you had not accustomed me to the qualities of your infinite mercy, if already you had not inspired in my heart a gentle trust, there would be every reason to draw back with horror.
In moving sentiments, he recalls God’s gracious care for him throughout his life and entrusts himself to doing God’s will.
But no, you are my Father, it is you who since the most fragile days of my infancy have led me as if by the hand. Everything you have done for me in the course of my life is too present to my memory, I feel again still today too vividly the effects not to count on your infinite goodness, not to throw myself with total abandon into your paternal bosom, fully resolved to do this time and always everything you demand of me, were it to cost me my life.
Too happy to devote the few days left me to spend on earth to do your holy Will in bad times as in good, with the world’s approval or condemnation, amidst consolations or overwhelmed with griefs. For I do not know what is awaiting me in the new ministry I am about to begin.
As always, nothing happens to me that you have not willed, and my happiness and my joy will be always to do your Will.
Retreat journal before being consecrated bishop, 7-14 October 1832, EO XV n 166
With boundless confidence in the God who has never abandoned him, he will continue to find his happiness and his joy in always doing the will of God for him.