As Father Magy accompanied Eugene in his vocational discernment, he expressed the heart of all spirituality: it is a lifelong response to what God has done in a person’s life. In the life of each of us there is a God-spark that lights the fire of our lives and gives meaning and purpose. In Eugene’s case it was the realization of being seen and loved through the eyes of his crucified Savior.
“The source of your confidence lies in what God has already done for you; it should be a joyful pledge of what he wants to do for you in the future, if you do not obstruct his action. Your vocation is as certain as it could ever be. That is all you need to know. “
We have seen how the spark that lit Eugene’s fire also led him into struggle and confusion. Fr. Magy’s advice was realistic: “For the rest, entrust yourself blindly to God. Nor should you count on the sweet consolations that it pleased God’s fatherly goodness to have you experience to give you support and encouragement. It is especially in abandonment, darkness, and temptations that fidelity becomes evident. Your moods fluctuate. God is always the same and deserves to be served with the same quality of zeal. On foggy days, remember the sunny days.
The truth that has seized upon you is not revealed to you by the senses which cannot seize it; it is a heavenly beam. This beam of light no longer shines, but the truth remains.” Letter from Father Magy to Eugene, August 1808, quoted in Rey I, p. 88
“On foggy days, remember the sunny days” was the invitation of Jesus to the disciples who had experienced his transfiguration and needed to remember the light in the darkness of Gethsemane and Calvary. It is the invitation that continues today, that in moments of darkness and lack of consolation, we must never lose sight of the spark that gave us light – and continues to do so. This is where our spirituality begins.
“From my point of view, God is the light that illuminates the darkness, even if it does not dissolve it, and a spark of divine light is within each of us.” Pope Francis